The Turning Point.

"What happened to your confidence, dude?" A good friend was asking me, a while ago. "Why are you sulking and self-pitying all of a sudden?" Putting a blank face before her, I wondered for a long time: Did I ever carry the self-confident look before? If yes, then why am I not even able to remember how I felt like during those days?

"What do you mean, all of a sudden!!" I chuckled. "I was like this all along!" I declared with a fake confidence. She looked at me with a concerned look. "Don't begin to get comfortable with your failures, Purnesh. You will lose yourself very soon."

Oooops. Now that's over my head. "What do you mean?"

"Your blog entries for the last couple of days are not about your failures in life."

"Then?"

"They are just a proof that you have embraced failure. You don't like to challenge your failure and step up, because you feel you are comfortable by embracing it.... by pretending to like it.... and sulking in it. It's easy and relaxing to say that you can't do something; and you have totally lost your ability to say that: you can."

Just then her extension began to ring and she took call; and I felt it's time to escape more of her lecture. I casually ambled across the aisle to my place, trying to ignore her words. But, my 'I CAN ignore her words' attitude was dominated by my 'I CAN'T ignore her words' attitude. And, as I blankly stared at my no-new-mails inbox, my screwed-up mind got disturbingly furious; and I began to think...............

As humans, we always have tendencies to put ourselves in comfort zone. It's our mind's mechanism to make peace with the world around. But, the issue is not with being in the comfort zone, but choosing the wrong zone as a comfortable one. A stable job, trust-worthy friends, a caring life-partner, a good house, a great ambition, etc are all shades of good comfort zones. The bad ones are innumerable; and failure (self-pity) is the darkest of all. Choosing failure as a comfort zone is undoubtedly the worst choice ever made by all the innocent souls, who lack friends like mine, to make them realize their folly.

/* Dedicated to all my friends who bear all my crappy-ness and hope that someday I will see the brighter side of life. Thanks, folks!!! */